Lagarmon
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Nothing majorly important that's going on in my life right now, but it's something that I just can't shake from my system & it bothers me when I can't figure things out.
Last night I was lying in bed trying to get to sleep but couldn't (which is normal), so I just let my mind wonder. I let my imagination take me to wherever it sent me. More often than not, I have very romantic visions/dreams/daydreams. Not sure why, maybe it has something to do w/ me wanting to have a really good relationship w/ a girl someday despite having 0 experience w/ women, but that's another topic. More on point, romantic ideas aren't foreign to me at all, so you'd think I'd be okay w/ them. Yet last night I wasn't.
I see in my mind a young girl about my age. Specifics always escape me when it comes to recalling dreams. All I can say is that she was attractive, kind, & gentle (to my liking anyway). She's upset for some reason, & I'm obviously there to comfort her. From the words we share it seems as though the two of us have been close for quite a while, despite me not having anyone like her at any point in my life. I hug her from behind, my chin leaning on her shoulder as her arm reaches up & softly touches my face. We end up looking at each other, smiling. I then see me & her (as if I'm outside looking in) staying that way for some time. That's when things get weird.
This sudden surge of pain goes through my stomach, & the dream/whatever ends. I open my eyes, still lying in bed, only this time w/ crazy-strong nausea. I try to ignore it & go back to my vision, yet every time I picture me & that girl together my stomach acts up again. Even now as I'm typing this thread, though to a much less irritating degree. That night I had to sit up & walk around, listen to my iPod, anything to try & get my mind off of what just happened. I go to the bathroom to try & relieve myself but nothing comes of it. I don't go back to sleep until hours later after I had watched TV until 3:00-4:00 a.m..
Why did this occur? I have moments like that little comforting scene go through my mind all the time & never have I had any sort of bad reaction to them. Especially one this physical & strong. I'm not even someone who has issues talking w/ girls, I just can't have a relationship now (again, another topic). I also plan on writing some stories (one even being Digimon-centered), so my imagination is crazy & nothing I have thought of before or after that moment has ever affected me on any level. I'm completely baffled & hope I can get some sort of answer eventually, from here or from somewhere else. It doesn't matter as long as I can get this to make sense. Thanks in advanced for reading.
Last night I was lying in bed trying to get to sleep but couldn't (which is normal), so I just let my mind wonder. I let my imagination take me to wherever it sent me. More often than not, I have very romantic visions/dreams/daydreams. Not sure why, maybe it has something to do w/ me wanting to have a really good relationship w/ a girl someday despite having 0 experience w/ women, but that's another topic. More on point, romantic ideas aren't foreign to me at all, so you'd think I'd be okay w/ them. Yet last night I wasn't.
I see in my mind a young girl about my age. Specifics always escape me when it comes to recalling dreams. All I can say is that she was attractive, kind, & gentle (to my liking anyway). She's upset for some reason, & I'm obviously there to comfort her. From the words we share it seems as though the two of us have been close for quite a while, despite me not having anyone like her at any point in my life. I hug her from behind, my chin leaning on her shoulder as her arm reaches up & softly touches my face. We end up looking at each other, smiling. I then see me & her (as if I'm outside looking in) staying that way for some time. That's when things get weird.
This sudden surge of pain goes through my stomach, & the dream/whatever ends. I open my eyes, still lying in bed, only this time w/ crazy-strong nausea. I try to ignore it & go back to my vision, yet every time I picture me & that girl together my stomach acts up again. Even now as I'm typing this thread, though to a much less irritating degree. That night I had to sit up & walk around, listen to my iPod, anything to try & get my mind off of what just happened. I go to the bathroom to try & relieve myself but nothing comes of it. I don't go back to sleep until hours later after I had watched TV until 3:00-4:00 a.m..
Why did this occur? I have moments like that little comforting scene go through my mind all the time & never have I had any sort of bad reaction to them. Especially one this physical & strong. I'm not even someone who has issues talking w/ girls, I just can't have a relationship now (again, another topic). I also plan on writing some stories (one even being Digimon-centered), so my imagination is crazy & nothing I have thought of before or after that moment has ever affected me on any level. I'm completely baffled & hope I can get some sort of answer eventually, from here or from somewhere else. It doesn't matter as long as I can get this to make sense. Thanks in advanced for reading.
